BASELINE ANXIETY

As of September 8, 2017, I can be outside 22.3km from home, for a short period of time.

Taking Effexxor seems to have had a dramatic effect on reducing my baseline anxiety levels.
These readings were taken at home over a prolonged period, and chart the decline of my baseline anxiety levels.

AUGUST 16 2014
300% (3 Times) Overexposed... 0.6 (on old scale, out of 5).
600% (6 Times) Overexposed... 0.9.
15 Times Overexposed... 1.1.
16 Times Overexposed... 1.2.
30 Times Overexposed... 1.5.
AUGUST 31 2014


TYPES OF ANXIETY FELT AT HOME
1. Panic attack in bed, have to flee bed.
2. Panic attack in bed, face down panic, panic subsides.
3. Panic attack in bed, ignore panic, panic subsides.
4. Cannot sleep due to anxiety. When I fall asleep, abruptly wake up.
5. When I think about the world outside, anxious thoughts arise.
6. While not particularly concerned about the world outside, I nonetheless find it difficult to sleep and stay asleep.
10. Euphoric type tinglings in the body. (January 2 2015)

WORKING AT HOME
Trying to sleep between a day of busy lessons on iTalki, I experience Type 4 disruptions, on March 1, 2015.

Close to panic on November 28, 2015 during lesson, 2nd of the day with 8 scheduled lessons, part of a 2-hour lesson block: washing machine on, Mum and Dad preparing food, reading and talking.

As of December 18, 2015, I feel inspired to appreciate the view of the lake while working on a computer (no iTalki lessons this day), and listening to music.

As of January 31, 2016, I notice tight feeling in the stomach while listening to music on the computer, with 5 upcoming iTalki lessons. Tightness disappears after consuming 3 SADs.

As of March 17, 2016, I realize that I have started sending text messages to Sam Evangelidis before or between classes, at Breezy.

On July 21, 2016, walking home from Lake Haven, on Goobarabrah Drive, scene looked real for seemingly the first time ever!

On August 7, 2016, with 3 iTalki lessons upcoming, listening to music, and having consumed 1.5 cans of VB, I feel inspired to appreciate the view of the lake from the dining room.

On September 13, 2016, I can feel a "medicated" effect when I wake up... probably due to Venlafaxine!

September 19, 2016: Second lesson in the garage.

October 27 2016: Sit with both feet on the floor while Mum and Dad are making lunch; 5 lessons to come!

December 15 2016: Enjoy the dimensions and atmosphere of the room while Mum talks noisily; 3 lessons to come!

April 24, 2017: Entranced by YouTube video while Dad is noisily emptying the washing machine: 6 lessons to come!

May 2, 2017: Anxiety about 2.0 while teaching 4 lessons in a noisy house, suffering Propranolol withdrawal.

April 12, 2018: Send text messages to Jason while waiting for appointment at Your Strengths, in Wyong.

May 17, 2018: Can look at scene 200m distant while eating lunch outside at the Halfway House, 6 lessons to come.

TYPES OF ANXIETY FELT NEAR HOME, OUTSIDE
x: (January 21/22 2015): Frequent reverie, appreciate the beauty of clouds.
y: (March 8 2015): First signs of lake de-derealisation noticed.

TYPES OF ANXIETY FELT NEAR HOME, OUTSIDE
x: (January 21/22 2015): Frequent reverie, appreciate the beauty of clouds.
y: (March 8 2015): First signs of lake de-derealisation noticed.

STAYING IN A HOTEL
As of March 9, 2016, I feel Type 5 anxiety lying in the bed at the Bridge View Motel, in Gorokan.
As of February 7, 2018, I feel Type 7 anxiety lying in the bed at the Grand Hotel, in Wyong.

TRACE ANXIETY
Irritability
Dizziness
Remember, before the Big Bang, my panic attacks all started from dizziness!


COMFORT BOUNDARY
During my 2015 stay at the Sun & Sea Motel at Noraville, I noticed that when I walked into the heart of Toukley, my background anxiety dropped significantly.